根据CDC， According to the CDC,
用药过量死亡人数增加了两倍… overdose deaths have tripled...
数字继续激增… The numbers continue to surge...
巴里吗?1秒。 Barry? One second.
-羊和羊毛?-是的。 - Sheep and wool? - Yeah.
在我的桌子上? It's on my desk?
-羊和羊毛?-是的。我今天就需要。 - Sheep and wool? - Yeah. I need it today.
哦,是的。我有。哼…… Oh, yeah. I have that. Hum...
对不起。我的点击量惊人 Sorry. I got an insane number of hits
我上周发的那些民主党的傻逼视频 on those democratic donkey videos I posted last week,
所以我一直在试着做出来，但我已经有了。 so I've been trying to crank those out, but I have it.
牛逼 牛逼· Great, great...
听着,托马斯。 Listen, Thomas.
你的提议，无论多么可点击， What you're proposing, however clickable,
这真的像新闻吗? does it really feel like news?
这仍然是我们的首要义务。 And that remains our first obligation.
我们知道我们在体力上受到了打击， We understand we're getting clobbered on physical,
但我们需要把选举作为一个晴雨表。 but we need to use the election as a barometer.
如果纸在六个月内还不动， If paper doesn't start moving in six months,
然后我们就知道一切都结束了， then we'll know the jig is up,
但我们现在必须遵守规则。 but we have to follow the rules now.
这是一个新时代。 It's a new age.
这不是我要抗争的。 That's not what I'm fighting, here.
我活了这么久，已经意识到这是一个巨大的变化…… I've been around long enough to recognize a sea change...
…但我们必须能做好我们的工作。 ...but we have to be able to do our job.
好了，我们继续吧，这样我们就能 Okay, so let's please move on, so we can get
我知道你们都有非常重要的工作。 to the very important work I know you all have.
吉尔，你说昨晚很吵? Gill, you said it was a heavy night?
抱歉打扰一下。 Sorry to interrupt.
托比? Toby?
我得跟玛丽莎谈谈，什么的… I need to talk to Marissa, something...
这是怎么呢 What's going on?
某物什么是错的。 Something... something's wrong.
好吧，言归正传。 Okay, back to business.
吉尔，你有什么发现? Gill, what do you got?
Arbor Hill谋杀案 Homicide in Arbor Hill,
年轻的孩子被枪杀了…… young kid gunned down...
这件事你不能怪自己。 You can't blame yourself for this one.
毫米。 Mm.
如此突然的损失。 Such a sudden loss.
我们祈祷这个家庭能找到安宁 We pray that that this family might find peace
在上帝全能国度的应许中。 in the promise of God's almighty kingdom.
虽然没有言语可以挽回 And while there are no words which can undo
这种悲剧的愤怒和绝望， the anger and despair of such a tragedy,
我们祈祷那些聚集在一起的人 we pray that those who have gathered
让这个悲伤的家庭知道他们并不孤单 show this grieving family that they are not alone
在他们的悲伤中， in their sorrow,
我们失去的儿子被爱包围着。 that the son we have lost is surrounded by love.
在这种悲惨的情况下， Now, in such tragic circumstances,
我们有时会被愤怒所诱惑，忽视上帝的计划…… we're sometimes tempted by rage to dismiss God's plan...
…失去我们自己的地方…… ...to lose our own place...
-不值得-…在他的怜悯中。 - It's not worth it. - ...in his mercy.
但是我们必须记住…… But we must remember...
你知道她会来的。 You knew she'd be here.
…死亡不过是离上帝更近一步 ...that death is but another step closer to God.
-我永远不会忘记他。-非常感谢。 - I'll never forget him. - Thanks so much.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
本宁斯太太，我怀孕了。 Mrs. Bennings, I'm pregnant.
妈，你他妈在干什么? Ma, what the fuck are you doing?
对不起，我打了你。 I'm sorry I hit you.
如果我知道就不会了。 I wouldn't if I had known.
是的，我知道。 Yeah, I know.
就因为你的情况，不代表我… Just because of your condition, doesn't mean I...
听着，你不需要喜欢我。 Look, you don't need to like me.
只有这个奇怪的，干瘪的小人儿。 Just this weird, shrivelled little person.
你确定是他的吗? You sure it's his?
是啊，除非有人溜进我的阴道 Yeah, unless someone snuck into my pussy
把它忘在那儿了。 and forgot it there.
我没让他变成瘾君子。 You know, I didn't make him a junkie.
不，我不知道。 No, I don't know that.
我知道你把他变成了小偷。 I know you made him a thief.
在你之前，他从没偷过我的东西。 He had never stolen anything from me in his life before you.
这真的是关于维他命ix吗? Is this really about the Vitamix?
不。这是关于说谎， No. It's about the lying,
偷窃，钱，珠宝，然后是维他命ix。 stealing, money, jewelry, and then the Vitamix.
这是他送给我的四十岁生日礼物。 He gave that to me for my fortieth birthday.
-你从来没用过-你做到了? - You never used it. - And you did?
他是怎么生活的? How was he living?
我们有自己的地方戒毒了。 We got our own place to get clean.
他一直有一些反常现象 He'd been having these freakouts
病得很重，他很害怕。 and getting really sick, and he was scared.
他还在贩毒吗? Was he still dealing?
问题就在这里，他停下来了。 Well, that's the thing, he had stopped.
当那些被污染的东西来到这里， When all that tainted shit came through here,
他决定是时候离开了。 he decided it was time to get away.
他想买查塔姆附近的房子。 He was looking to buy this place near Chatham.
他对组建家庭感到很兴奋。 He was excited to start a family.
买房子? Buy a place?
他怎么买得起房子呢? How was he going to afford to buy a place?
他说得好像达奇和他都想好了。 He made it sound like Ducky and him had it all figured out.
他还和达奇在一起吗? He was still hanging out with Ducky?
哦,是的。 Oh, yeah.
他就像我们俩的兄弟一样。 He was like a brother to both of us.
听着，我不是来这里争论或乞求什么的。 Look, I didn't come here to argue or beg or whatever.
我来这里是因为我爱迈克尔 I'm here because I loved Michael,
我很难过他走了，我知道你也是 and I'm sad he's gone, and I know that you are too.
即使你现在只会生气， Even if you're only capable of being mad right now,
我知道，你只是伤心而已。 I know that really, you're just sad.
是啊，我也想他。 Yeah, I miss him, too.
你说对了，迈克! You got it, Mike!
没事的，孩子!那是一个很好的提议! It's okay, kiddo! That was a good pitch!
你认为是谁干的? Who do you think did it?
我们有线索了 Well, we've got a lead,
但我不认为那是 but I don't think that's
你现在该考虑的事。 what you should be thinking about right now.
啊。 Ugh.
好吧。 Okay.
你还记得迈克的朋友达奇吗? You remember Mike's friend, Ducky?
埃弗雷特Dukowski。 Everett Dukowski.
是的，当然。 Yeah, of course.
现在我们很确定了 Well, at this point we're pretty certain
埃弗雷特负责带来芬太尼 Everett's responsible for bringing fentanyl
去伦敦南端。 to the South End.
那太残忍了。 That shit is brutal.
沉迷其中的瘾君子 Junkies who get tied up in it
不管怎样，别坚持太久。 don't last long, one way or another.
所以迈克尔被绑在里面了? So, Michael was tied up in it?
我们认为他和达奇可能在一起做生意， We think him and Ducky might have been in business together,
卖这该死的母乳 selling this Mother's Milk shit,
海洛因，可卡因和芬太尼。 heroin, coke and fentanyl.
也许他们之间吵架了，或者交易出了问题。 Maybe there was a fight between them or a deal gone wrong.
你怎么会这么想? What makes you think that?
迈克在附近被杀了 Mike was killed up the block
在达奇的藏匿处找到的 from one of Ducky's stash houses.
他也符合邻居的描述。 And he matches a description from a neighbour.
你最后一次见到他是什么时候?迈克? When was the last time you saw him? Mike?
我不知道，三四个月前吧。 I don't know, three, four months ago, maybe.
你把我打败了。 Well, you got me beat.
天啊，你还没把那东西扔了吗? Jesus, you still haven't thrown that thing out yet?
它帮助。 It helps.
我觉得这样会更难。 I figured it would make it harder.
如果你不带灯就不会。 Not if you don't carry a light.
好吧，给我来一口。 Alright, give me a fucking drag.
嗯。 Mmm.
哇。 Wow.
假装有帮助。 Pretending kind of does help.
我会去找达奇的，我保证。 I'll get Ducky, I promise.
进来! Come in!
玛丽莎，你在这里做什么? Marissa, what are you doing here?
我只是想确保我不在的时候你不会太沉沦。 Just wanted to make sure you weren't too buried without me.
是的，一切都很好。 Yeah, everything's going okay.
太好了。 That's great.
嗯… Um...
我们以为你至少一个月后才会回来。 We weren't expecting you back for a month at least.
你还好吗? How are you holding up?
我想回来工作。 I want to come back to work.
你为了弗兰克请了三个月的假。 You took three months off for Frank.
是的，那是不一样的。 Yeah, that was different.
我要回来。 I need to come back.
告诉我你觉得那是什么。 And tell me what that looks like to you.
和之前一样。 Same thing as it did before.
你讨厌编辑。 You hate editing.
现在就走出去，看看这破事 Walk out there right now and look at the shit
巴里在你离开后写的东西 that Barry's been writing since you've been gone.
他妈的巴里吗? Fucking Barry?
把A和C部分变成驴戏的那个? The one who turned the A and C section into a donkey show?
好吧，让我们休息一下。 Okay, let's take a second here.
你讨厌巴瑞和外面的那些人。 You hate Barry and all those guys out there.
为什么? Why?
因为他们不是作家。 Because they aren't writers.
它们都是关于数字和格式的 They're all about numbers and formatting
以及每次点击的字数等等。 and words per click, or whatever.
见鬼，你几乎不知道互联网能做什么。 Hell, you barely know what the Internet does.
玛丽莎，你是我最好的作家， Marissa, you are my best writer,
但出于某种原因，你拒绝写作。 but for some reason, you refuse to write.
慢慢来，但是要写。 Take your time, but write.
好,干净。 Alright, clean.
胡说，它碰到我的蛋蛋了。 Bullshit, it's touching my ball.
好好学习吧，笨蛋。 Watch and learn, sucker.
——幸运。 - Lucky.
我向最优秀的人学习。 I learned from the best.
另一个地方。 Another.
好了，轮到你了。 Alright, your shot.
她甚至都不想加入。 She didn't even want to join.
她不想打扰我。 She didn't want to intrude.
她说我们应该独处一段时间 She said we should have some alone time together
只是悲伤。 to just grieve.
这就是我们要做的吗? Is that what we're doing?
你没事吧，妈妈? You going to be okay, Mom?
一次一个球。 One ball at a time.
看这个，往左边! Watch this, to the left!
让我们快点! Let's make this quick!
一个皮箱。 A leather case.
它一定在这里的某个地方。 It's got to be here somewhere.
后面有个房间。 There's a back room.
哦,他妈的。 Oh, fuck.
在那里! There!
你在干什么? What are you doing?
我一直想这么做。 I've always wanted to do that.
听起来很奇怪，不是吗? Sounds weird, doesn't it?
那是什么? What's that?
佩吉说迈克尔，达奇和她 Paige said that Michael, Ducky and her
我们搬进农场或房子， were moving into a farm, or a house,
查塔姆的事? something in Chatham?
迈克，一个农民? Mike, a farmer?
我知道。这说不通啊。 I know. It doesn't make sense.
听着，你得对那个女孩小心点。 Listen, you've got to be careful with that girl.
你他妈在这干什么? What the fuck are you doing here?
操，操，操。 Fuck, fuck, fuck.
对不起，我本想保持清醒的。 Sorry, I meant to stay awake.
你在这里做什么? What are you doing here?
有人闯进了我家 Someone broke into my house,
我只是无处可去 and I just didn't have anywhere else to go.
你受伤了吗? Were you hurt?
你看到是谁了吗? Did you see who it was?
没有，但我找到了这个。 No, but I found this.
哼……我想这就是他们要找的东西。 Hum... I think it's what they were looking for.
我在他们进来之前发现的。 I found it right before they came in.
那是什么? What is that?
那是价值5万美元的海洛因。 That's about $50,000 worth of dirty heroin.
我更喜欢另一种方式。 I like the other way better.
我也是。 Me too.
做婴儿生意很艰难 This baby business is tough
但不管怎样都行，对吧?——正确的。 but Whatever works, right? - Right.
她今晚怎么样? How was she tonight?
喝醉了。 Drunk.
她哭了吗? Did she cry?
她说她已经为他哭了。 She said she'd already cried for him.
喝酒是没有用的。 The drinking isn't going to help.
还记得弗兰克死后情况有多糟吗? Remember how bad it got after Frank?
-是的。我绝对记得。 - Yeah. I definitely remember.
嘿,妈妈。这是怎么呢 Hey, Mom. What's going on?
是的，我认得这个标志。 Yeah, I recognize the logo.
这就是我跟你说过的。 This is the shit I was telling you about.
你不会起诉她的，对吧? You're not going to charge her, right?
不。 No.
你做得对。 You did the right thing.
这就是全部了吗?——一切吗? Is this everything? - Everything?
你看到闯进来的人了吗? Any chance you saw the person that broke in?
没有，我很快就出来了。 No, I got out pretty quick.
那么，这意味着什么呢? So, what does this mean?
-我要拿着这个…-这意味着一切都成真了。 - I'm going to take this... - This means shit just got real.
那天晚上有人打电话给他。 Somebody called him that night.
他离开时吓坏了 He left all freaked out,
我完全不知道发生了什么，然后，砰! I had no idea what was going on, and then, bam!
你知道是谁打给他的吗，佩吉? You know who called him, Paige?
是达奇。 It was Ducky.
对吧? Alright?
我们检查了他的手机。 We checked his phone.
谢谢你，佩吉。 Thank you, Paige.
我要把这个拿到警局去。 I'm going to take this to the station.
好吧? Okay?
我给你拿条毯子放在沙发上。 I'll get you a blanket for the couch.
谢谢你！ Thank you.
我的呕吐吵醒你了吗? Did my puking wake you up?
不。 No.
你感觉好点了吗? You feeling any better?
一点也不 Not at all.
你有过什么奇怪的渴望吗 Did you ever have any weird cravings
你怀孕的时候? when you were pregnant?
Necco晶片。 Necco wafers.
necco威化是什么鬼东西? What the hell's a necco wafer?
就像圆盘状的糖果，你懂吗? It's like this little disk-shaped candy, you know?
它尝起来像……尝起来像粉笔。 It tastes like... tastes like chalk.
我一定是把体重都吃进去了。 I must have eaten my body weight in them.
我想要橡皮泥。 I want Play-doh.
橡皮泥吗? Play-doh?
那对孩子可不好。 That can't be good for the baby.
孩子们经常吃，而且没事。 Kids eat it all the time and they're fine.
你应该问问你的医生。 Well, you should ask your doctor about that.
是的。 Yeah.
你有医生，对吧? You have a doctor, right?
是啊，我们发现后去找了个直男， Yeah, well, we went to one straight when we found out,
但是预算很紧，所以… but the budget was pretty tight, so...
我们在攒钱准备再去一次。 We were saving up to go again.
快点，你得去看医生。 Come on, you need to see a doctor.
-什么，现在?-不，大概一个月前 - What, right now? - No, like a month ago,
但是，现在总比以后好。 but yeah, now's better than later.
我得顺路去趟公司，但不会太久的。 Uh, I have to stop by work, but it won't take long.
我弄完后送你回家。 I'll give you a ride home when I'm done.
这取决于你对"家"的定义。 Depends on what you mean by "home".
-回头见。-再见。 - I'll see you soon. - See you.
接电话，快点! Pick up the phone, come on!
我只是想说我弄明白了一些事情 I just wanted to say that I figured some things out
和我有一个计划，你知道的。 and I have a plan, you know.
他们说这是有道理的。我… They said it made sense. I...
我知道你把我赶出房子是对的… I know you were right to kick me out of the house...
<我>…但是，你知道，现在有一点他妈的现金 ...but, you know, a little bit of fucking cash right now
真的很容易得到… would really go a long way to getting...
我知道你在屋里! I know you're in the house!
我能看见你在房子里动! I can see you moving in the house!
让我进去，这是我的狗屎! Let me in, it's my shit!
你他妈的把锁换了，妈! You changed the fucking locks, Mom!
<我>…妈妈! What the... Mom!
嘿，妈妈，我不能指望你这次接电话了。 Hey, Mom, I can't expect you to pick up this time.
我只是想说…… 生日快乐… I just want to say... Happy birthday...
佩奇也是。 So does Paige.
嗯，我想让你知道我们做得好多了。 Um, I want you to know that we're doing a lot better.
嗯，有件事我想亲自告诉你。 Um, there's something I want to tell you in person.
我很爱你。 I love you so much.
<我>再见。 Bye.
你是认真的吗? Are you fucking serious?
佩吉? Paige?
这是吉娜。 It's Gina.
嘿! Hey!
你在这里做什么? What are you doing here?
我想和我一样。 Um, same as me, I guess.
玛丽莎应该来接我的。 Marissa's supposed to be picking me up.
哦。 Oh.
你介意我和你一起吗? Do you mind if I join you?
确定。 Sure.
啊… Ugh...
我喜欢你的项链。 I like your necklace.
我从塔吉特百货偷的。 I stole it from Target.
-我想它适合你。 - It suits you, I guess.
谢谢。 Thanks.
呃，我是说… Uh, I just mean...
不，没关系。我明白你的意思。 No, it's okay. I know what you meant.
对不起。 Sorry.
我能问你一个问题吗? Can I ask you a question?
嫁给警察是什么感觉? What's it like being married to a cop?
它和其他东西没什么不同。 Um, it's not so different from anything else.
只是你的一部分接受了 There's just a part of you that accepts
也许有一天他再也回不来了。 he might not come home one day.
听起来很像和瘾君子约会。 Sounds a lot like dating a junkie.
她不会来的。 She's not fucking coming.
我可以载你一程。 I can give you a ride.
-你确定?-当然了。 - You sure? - Yeah, of course.
工作不太顺利，是吧? Didn't go so well at work, huh?
对不起，我忘了。 Sorry, I forgot.
你有重要的事情要做。 You had important things to do.
-别说了。 - Stop it.
不，你他妈的住手! No, you fucking stop it!
原谅我吗? Excuse me?
你一直在逃避一切， You just keep fucking hiding from everything,
而且真的很难看。 and it's really fucking hard to look at.
这对我们所有人来说都很糟糕。 It's shitty for all of us.
别再假装你是一个人了。 Just stop pretending you're alone.
我想回到匿名者协会。 I want to go back to Al-Anon.
嗯，这是个好的开始。 Well, that's a good start.
我和你一起去，确保这不是酒后的承诺。 I'll come with you, make sure it's not a drunk promise.
毫米。 Mm.
不管怎样，迈克尔过去常说 For what it's worth, Michael used to say
你是一个很好的作家。 you were a really good writer.
噢,是吗? Oh, yeah?
他还说了什么? What else did he say?
他说弗兰克死前 He said that before Frank died,
他记得你很快乐。 he remembered you were happy.
他什么时候说的? When did he say that?
一直都是。 All the time.
真希望能见到他。 I wish I got to meet him.
不，那你就会知道… No, well then you'd know...
你就知道他有多混蛋了。 you'd know what an asshole he was.
即使在他生病的时候? Even when he got sick?
尤其是他生病的时候。 Especially when he got sick.
是的,但是…… Yeah, but...
你有没有停止过想念他? Did you ever stop missing him?
从来没有。 Never.
嗯，那是一个累赘。 Well, that's a drag.
哦,上帝。 Oh, god.
-那是谁?-那是托比。 - Who's that? - That's Toby.
-天啊。-看看他的头发。 - Oh, man. - Look at his hair.
甜的。 Sweet.
我们也该给你买一个。 We should get yours one of these.
它使护理更容易。——是吗? It makes nursing easier. - Yeah?
我要去睡觉了。 I'm going to bed.
好吧。 Okay.
晚安。 Goodnight.
我想我家里还有一个， I think I still have one of these at the house,
信不信由你。 believe it or not.
嗯哼。 Mm-hmm.
嘿，我们可以用这个 Oh, hey, we could use these,
特别是如果我们用泵的话。 especially if we go with the pump.
是的… Yeah...
没有什么? Nothing?
好吧，我很高兴我们买的是我的孩子。 Okay, well, I'm glad it's my baby we're shopping for.
哦，他妈的是的! Oh, fuck yes!
原谅我吗? Excuse me?
-我们有线索了-什么? - We got a lead. - A what?
我们有线索了。 We got a lead.
让他们继续调查，但与此同时， Let them do their investigation, but in the meantime,
我们自己去找故事也无妨，你知道吗? it can't hurt to get the story ourselves, you know?
我是说，也许他们跟警察说的话是一样的， I mean, maybe it'll be the same thing they told the cops,
但我想亲自听听 but I want to hear it myself.
听着，这是我们可以做的事 Listen, it's something we can actually do
而不是坐在那里闷闷不乐。 instead of sitting around moping.
这是一个领先! It's a lead!
这既不道德也不合法。 You know, this isn't ethical or legal.
当然是。 Sure it is.
-嗨。——杰里米? - Hey. - Jeremy?
请进。 Come on in.
我听到了枪声， I heard the shots,
但杰克是那个看到的人。 but Jack was the one who saw it.
他因为吃药有点不正常。 He's a little out of it from his meds.
爷爷因为臀部的原因经常坐着。 Grandpa sits a lot because of his hip.
事情发生的时候他就坐在那里。 He was sitting right there when it happened.
嗨，杰克，很高兴见到你。 Hi, Jack, nice to meet you.
我是玛丽莎。 I'm Marissa.
我在时代联盟工作。 I work for the Times Union.
你看到发生了什么? So, you saw what happened?
爷爷，你还记得那天晚上发生的事吗? Grandpa, you remember what happened the other night?
玛丽莎的儿子中枪了。 Marissa's son was shot.
他被杀了，记得吗? He was killed, remember?
他就是你看到死在房子前面的那个人。 He was the one you saw die in front of the house.
那太糟糕了。 That's too bad.
我很抱歉。 I'm sorry.
你不是说他看到那晚发生的事了吗。 I thought you said he saw what happened that night.
拜托，什么都没有?-佩吉，嘿。 Come on, nothing? - Paige, hey.
杰克，好好想想。拜托，好好想想。 Jack, just think. Please, just think.
-别这么没礼貌。-我没有无礼。 - Let's not be rude. - I'm not being rude.
爷爷，你说有人在外面喊， Grandpa, you said there was someone outside yelling,
然后……-用卡车吗? and then... - With the truck?
对，那辆卡车。 Yeah, with the truck.
那个男孩站在街上大喊大叫。 The boy was standing in the street yelling his head off.
然后，我听到了卡车的声音。 Then, I heard the truck.
我觉得他要找的那个孩子就住在那里， I think the kid he was calling for lives there,
因为我以前在那里见过他。 because I've seen him there before.
极好的! Ducky!
希望这对你有帮助。 Hope that was helpful.
-嗨，劳里。-嗨。 - Hey, Laurie. - Hey.
你还好吗? How you been?
勉强过得去。 Just getting by.
谢谢大家的到来。 Thank you for being here, everyone.
来，到圈子里来。 Come, come into the circle.
请坐。 Have a seat.
这是一个阳光明媚的日子，我们都在地下室， It's a sunny day and we're all in a basement,
但我们要互相了解，好好谈谈。 but we're going to get to know each other and talk.
我看到一些新面孔，欢迎。 I see some new faces, welcome.
还有一些我们很久没见的人。 And some who we haven't seen for a while.
很高兴你回来了。 It's good to have you back.
我们的… Our...
我们为你祈祷。 We had you in our prayers.
好吧，今天谁来开场? Uh, okay, so, who wants to start us off today?
任何想法吗?任何… Any thoughts? Any...
哦,劳里! Oh, Laurie!
大约三个月前，我失去了女儿杰西卡。 I lost my daughter, Jessica, about three months ago now.
还没有…… Haven't...
…我真的觉得自己没有能力 ... haven't really felt capable
直到现在才透露了太多。 of sharing too much about it until now.
我相信你们很多人都知道这种感觉。 I'm sure a lot of you know the feeling.
毫米。 Mm.
杰西卡是个很难养大的孩子。 Jessica was a hard kid to raise.
我觉得，有时候，我们把孩子描绘成圣人。 I think, sometimes, we paint our kids as saints.
杰西卡不是圣人…… Jessica was not a saint...
…相反。 ...the opposite.
她有点让人讨厌。 She was kind of a pain in the ass.
总之，我找到她的那天早上， So, anyway, the morning I found her,
我正要去上班， I was about to go to work,
所以我去她的房间叫醒她。 so I went to her room to wake her up.
你当时没有意识到… You don't realize it at the time...
…但走到门口是最后一次 ...but that walk to the door is the last time
你就是你认为的那个人。 you are who you think you are.
但你不知道。 But you don't know.
我不知道。 I didn't know.
我打开门，她就在那里， So, I opened the door, and there she is,
躺在床上，衣不蔽体， laying on the bed, fully clothed,
她周围点燃了蜡烛。 candles lit around her.
起初，我很生气。 At first, I was furious.
你知道，她在蜡烛燃烧的时候睡着了。 You know, she had fallen asleep with candles burning.
我开始对她大喊:“你疯了吗? And I start screaming at her, "Are you crazy?
你会把房子烧了的。” You're going to burn the house down."
然后，我看到地毯上有一个小袋子。 And then, I see it, a tiny little bag on the carpet.
和我…我只是看着它。 And I... I just look at it.
我记得袋子上的标志。 I remember the logo on the bag.
这在我的脑海里烙下了印记? It's seared into my head, you know?
M.M. M.M.
当你看到这样的东西， When you see something like that,
你知道，一切都会破裂。 you know, everything cracks.
你编的故事太棒了。 The stories you made crack.
你觉得你的孩子是个疯子。 Who you thought your kid was cracks.
你以为你是谁。 Who you thought you were cracks.
你现在就是那个家庭了。 You're that family, now.
你从没意识到你就是那个家人。 You never realized you were that family.
嘿，我要走回去。 Hey, I'm going to walk back.
你应该载劳里一程。 You should offer Laurie a ride.
我很确定她想一个人待着。 Uh, I'm pretty sure she wants to be left alone.
不，那是你想要的。 No, that's what you want.
我要去检查一下达奇的斑点。 I'm going to check some of Ducky's spots.
嘿,罗力。嘿! Hey, Laurie. Hey!
玛丽莎! Marissa!
你要搭车吗? Do you want a ride?
我真不敢相信我会问这个问题，但是… I can't believe I'm actually going to ask this, but...
…我可以面试你吗? ...could I interview you?
采访我吗? Interview me?
你……把一些事情用语言表达出来 You... put some things into words
我还没能做到。 I haven't been able to yet.
你知道这些都是保密的，对吧? You know all that stuff is confidential, right?
是的，当然。这就是问题的关键。 Yeah, of course. That's the point.
我想让你和我私下谈谈，妈妈和妈妈之间的谈话。 I want you to talk to me on the record, you know, mom to mom.
为了什么? For what?
嗯，我还不知道。 Well, I don't know yet.
但如果我写下来，我就知道了。 But baybe if I write it, I'll know.
再次感谢。 Thanks again.
嘿，这是怎么回事? Hey, what's going on here?
这是一个安全的注射地点和针头交换。 This is a safe injection site and needle exchange for users.
怎么啦？ What?
如果我的孩子去了这样的学校 Maybe if my baby had gone to one of these
如果不是躲在房间里，她就不会死。 instead of hiding in her room, she wouldn't have died.
这至少消除了这种危险。 This at least takes that danger away.
你应该过来看看。 You should come check it out.
如果帮助和治愈是你想要的， If helping and healing is actually what you want,
你真的需要看清它的本质。 you really need to see it for what it is.
-准备好了吗?-是的。 - Alright, ready? - Yeah.
嗨,约翰。嗨,黛安娜。 Hey, John. Hey, Diane.
玛丽莎，这是黛安。 Marissa, this is Diane.
她负责芬太尼试纸的分发。 She coordinates the distribution of fentanyl test strips.
她告诉我去哪里，怎么帮忙， She tells me where to go, how to help,
如何远离…… how to stay out of...
嘿，你没事吧? Hey, you okay?
玛丽莎? Marissa?
呃，打扰一下。 Uh, excuse me.
你要找Toby Bennings You're looking for Toby Bennings.
请留言 Leave a message.
极好的!小鸭，我只是想和你谈谈! Ducky! Ducky, I just want to talk to you!
极好的! Ducky!
-佩吉!-嗨。 - Paige! - Hey.
-一切都好吗?-是的。 - Is everything alright? - Yeah.
是的。一切都很好，抱歉。 Yeah. Everything's cool, sorry.
其实我只是过来和吉娜谈谈的。 I just came by to talk to Gina, actually.
她下班后和几个朋友出去了， Uh, she went out with some friends after work,
所以她晚一点才会回来。 so she's not going to be back until later.
哦，好吧，当然。 Oh, okay, of course.
很抱歉我这么诡异。 Sorry for being creepy.
我只是觉得找个人聊聊会很好 I just thought it would be nice to talk to someone
谁不觉得自己是家长呢 who doesn't actually feel like a parent
就像把他们的东西放在一起。 and, like, actually has their shit together.
我懂你的意思。 Yeah, I get you.
我会告诉她你来过。——好的。 I'll tell her you stopped by. - Okay.
-晚安。-再见。 - Have a good night. - See you.
佩奇，如果你愿意，你可以进来。 Uh, Paige, if you want, you can come in.
——是吗?-在某种程度上… - Yeah? - In a way...
…我们现在算是一家人了，所以…来吧。 ...we're kind of family now, so... come on.
操，你还好吧? Fuck, you alright?
我以为我杀了你。 I thought I killed you.
你他妈跟着我干什么? What the fuck are you doing following me?
你杀了我儿子。 You killed my son.
不，我他妈没有。 No, I fucking didn't.
你他妈相信这种鬼话? You fucking believe that shit?
那么，发生了什么? So, what happened, then?
发生什么事了，达奇? What happened, Ducky?
我只知道有人打电话给我 Look, all I know is somebody called me
告诉我迈克有麻烦了 and told me Mike was in trouble
他需要离开他的房子。 and that he needed to get out of his house.
所以我打电话给他，让他来见我 So, I called him and I told him to meet me
马上去那栋房子。 at the squat house right away.
我以为我是在保护他。 I thought I was protecting him.
你他妈会怎么做? What the fuck would you do?
我不知道他们会杀了他。 I didn't know they were going to fucking kill him.
这是方便的。 That's convenient.
不。真糟糕，本宁斯太太。 No. It sucks, Mrs. Bennings.
我是他最好的朋友。 I was his fucking best friend.
那么，是谁杀了他? Then, who killed him?
我没见过他，但他开车到处转 I never met the guy, but he drives around
在这辆白色卡车里 in this white truck
手上还有个该死的纹身。 and has this fucking stupid tattoo on his hand.
我就知道这么多。 That's all I know.
没人他妈的相信我。 Nobody fucking believes me.
极好的! Ducky!
嘿,你!你在里面干什么? Hey, you! What are you doing in there?
妈的，妈。你还好吗? Holy shit, Mom. Are you okay?
是的，我很好。 Yeah, I'm fine.
我只是想和你谈谈。 I just needed to talk to you.
妈的，玛丽莎，怎么了? Fuck, Marissa, what happened?
我…找到你的朋友小鸭了。 I... found your friend Ducky.
——什么?-是的。 - What? - Yeah.
对，他在食物救济站。 Yeah, he was at the food bank.
我跟着他来到教堂街的火车站。 I followed him to the train yard down on Church Street.
你跟踪他了? You followed him?
他偷偷溜了过来 He snuck up
用什么东西打我。 and hit me with something.
他差点杀了你，妈妈。 He could have killed you, Mom.
我知道，但他跟我谈过了。 I know, but he talked to me.
跟你说过话? Talked to you?
你有威士忌吗? You got any whisky?
我要出去找他。 I'm going to go out and look for him.
他跑不了多远。 He couldn't have gotten far.
你确定是他? You sure it was him?
我肯定。 I'm sure.
他说什么了吗? Well, did he say anything?
他说是一个手上有纹身的人， He said it was a guy with a tattoo on his hand,
不是他干的。 that he didn't do it.
不，不是他干的。 No shit he didn't do it.
他不是杀人犯。 He's not a fucking murderer.
你以为我会相信那个人 You expect me to believe that the man
刚才把我打晕的人不是个暴力分子吗? who just knocked me unconscious isn't a violent person?
如果有人这样跟踪你，你会怎么做? What would you do if someone followed you like that?
你真的不明白。 You really don't understand.
他让迈克在那里和他见面。 He told Mike to meet him there.
他陷害了他佩吉 He set him up, Paige.
极好的! Ducky!
你好! Hello!
极好的! Ducky!
抱歉，我刚才在楼下。 Hey, sorry, I was downstairs.
-我能进来吗?-嗯，好吧。 - Can I come inside? - Uh, yeah, okay.
发生什么事情了?你对吧? What's happening? You alright?
可喜的死了。 Ducky's dead.
你怎么知道的? Uh, how do you know?
因为我去了那栋老房子，找到了他。 Because I went to that old house and I found him.
他自杀了。 He killed himself.
他妈的,好吧… Fuck, okay...
嗯… Uh...
哦,上帝。 Oh, god.
好了，听着，坐下。 Alright, look, just sit down.
我去给你倒点水。你没事吧? I'll get you some water. You okay?
是的。 Yeah.
喝一杯吧。 Just have a drink.
做几个深呼吸。 Take a few deep breaths.
他妈的。 Fuck.
还有其他人在吗? Was anyone else there?
没有，只有我一个人。 No, it was just me.
,嗯… And, um...
是的，我看到了他的尸体，然后就离开了。 Yeah, I saw his body, and then I left.
明白了，好的。 Got it, okay.
你为什么不打911? Uh, why didn't you call 911?
因为我知道我不应该在那里。 Because I knew I wasn't supposed to be there.
我就是为此而来的。我知道你能帮上忙。 That's why I'm here. I knew that you could help.
确定。我很抱歉。 Sure. I'm sorry.
对你的损失我深表遗憾。 I'm really sorry for your loss.
我马上派人过去。 I'll get someone to go around there right away.
别紧张，别拘束。 You just take it easy and make yourself at home.
我只要两分钟，好吗?——好的。 I'm just going to be two minutes, alright? - Okay.
哦…… Oh...
他妈的。 Fuck.
你好，我需要有人去那个地址 Hi, I need someone to go to the address
然后马上去查一下。 and just check it out right away.
是的，没错。 Yeah, that's right.
我需要有人去1-2-3 -8看看是否可以。 I need someone to go to 1-2-5-8 and check if possible.
这是个人问题。 This one's personal.
佩吉? Paige?
佩吉，把电话给我。-退后。 Paige, give me the phone. - Get back.
-把电话给我。——没有。 - Just give me the phone. - No.
-把电话给我。-滚远点。 - Give me the phone. - Back the fuck off.
-佩奇…——没有。 - Paige... - No.
听我说。 Listen to me.
你不明白这是怎么回事。 You don't understand what's going on here.
-托比，不要。——请。 - Toby, no. - Please.
-备份。-我可以解释。 - Back up. - I can explain.
-他妈的退后。-听我说。 - Back the fuck up. - Listen to me.
把电话给我。-滚远点。 Just give me the phone. - Back the fuck away.
我告诉你。-他妈的退后! I'm telling you. - Back the fuck up!
我可以解释!我可以解释。佩奇! I can explain! I can explain this. Paige!
冷静点! Just calm down!
别说了，好吗! Just stop, okay!
冷静点，把电话给我。 Calm down, give me the phone.
去你妈的!他妈的离我远点! Fuck you! Get the fuck away from me!
-佩吉!-快他妈退后! - Paige! - Just back the fuck up!
给我让开!别碰我! Get out of my way! Don't touch me!
-给我…——走! - Just give me... - Away!
-把电话给我!-他妈的放开我! - Give me the fucking phone! - Get the fuck off me!
把电话给我!佩奇! Give me the phone! Paige!
停! Stop!
操，操，操，操。 Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck.
佩奇!佩奇! Paige! Paige!
嘿,嘿。 Hey, hey.
哦,他妈的。 Oh, fuck.
他妈的。 Fuck.
嘿，我回来了。 Hey, I'm home.
吉娜! Gina!
叫救护车，快! Call an ambulance, quick!
吉娜，我是佩吉，叫救护车! Gina, it's Paige, call an ambulance!
她在浴室里摔倒了。 She fell in the bathroom.
我想她吸毒过量了!她流血了! I think she OD'd! She's bleeding!
马上叫辆救护车! Just get an ambulance right now!
好吧,好吧! Okay, okay!
嗨,嗯… Hi, um...
他妈的,他妈的! Fuck, fuck!
托比，我觉得佩吉有所隐瞒。 Toby, I think Paige is hiding something.
是的，你说得对。 Yeah, you're right.
她又吸毒了，而且吸毒过量。 She's using again and she overdosed.
怎么啦？ What?
她正在去医院的路上 She's on her way to the hospital right now.
在St. Peter's见我们。 Meet us at St. Peter's.
请给我钳子。 The forceps, please.
再多一点空间。 A little more space.
好吧。 Alright.
我们有一条平线。 We have a flatline.
把急救车拿来。 Get the crash cart.
你好,猫。 Hi, cat.
有个婴儿。 There's a baby.
结识。 Make acquaintance.
耶稣基督。你吓到我了。 Jesus Christ. You scared me.
对不起，我不请自来了。 Sorry, I let myself in.
你没事吧? You okay?
这是一个不错的房间。 It's a nice room.
对小天使来说再合适不过了。 Perfect for the little angel.
我得去给她拿奶瓶。 I've got to get her her bottle.
来，来吧。 Here, come on.
在这里。 Here.
好了。 There you go.
是的。 Yeah.
这是怎么呢 What's going on?
我发现了一些东西。 I found something.
玛丽莎，我在地下室的楼梯下找到的。 Marissa, I found it under the stairs, in the basement.
我以为这是某种奇迹…… I thought it was some kind of miracle...
…像一份礼物，留下作为提醒。 ...like a gift, left as a reminder.
但后来我看到了血。 But then I saw the blood.
-如何…-我不知道… - How... - I don't know...
我一直在想所有可能的原因。 I've been trying to think of every possible reason.
我… I...
你问过他这件事吗? Have you asked him about it?
不。 No.
我找不到合适的词。 I can't find the words.
那你打算怎么做? So, what are you going to do?
我不知道该怎么做才对。 I don't know what the right thing to do is.
反正我也不知道我能不能做到。 I don't know if I could do it, anyways.
<我>我知道。我也很内疚。 I know. I feel guilty too.
我得走了，但我不认为 I've got to leave, but I don't think
这才是你现在应该考虑的，妈妈。 that's what you should be thinking about right now, Mom.
他负责把芬太尼带进伦敦南区。 He was responsible for bringing fentanyl into the South End.
<我>。拿起电话……来吧。 Come on. Pick up the phone... Come on.
Ducky不会逃掉的 Ducky's not getting away with this shit.
我们认为他和Michael可能在一起做生意。 We think he and Michael might have been in business together.
可能是发生了争执之类的。 Maybe there was a dispute or something.
我不能指望你这次接电话了。 I can't expect you to pick up this time.
有件事我想亲自告诉你。 There is something I want to tell you in person.
<我>好的,妈妈… Okay, Mom...
听着，你得对那个女孩小心点。 Listen, you've got to be careful with that girl.
<我>…我很爱你。 ...I love you so much.
<我>再见。 Bye.
你知道是谁打给他的，佩姬。 You know who called him, Paige.
是Ducky。 It was Ducky.
我们检查了他的电话。 We checked his phone.
嗨。 Hi.
她在睡觉。 She's sleeping.
你还好吧，妈妈? You feeling okay, Mom?
不。不是真的。 No. Not really.
哇。 Wow.
好多年没见过这东西了。 Haven't seen this thing in years.
这是爸爸最好的手提箱。 This was dad's nicest suitcase.
他们在上面贴满了贴纸。 They covered it in fucking stickers.
东西都在里面。 The stuff's in there.
你认为那是杀死她的原因? You think that's what killed her?
是的，看起来是这样。 Yeah, it seems like it.
他们都含有芬太尼。 They both had fentanyl in them.
严重的是,妈妈。 Seriously, Mom.
你应该去看医生。 You should go see a doctor.
是的…我会的。 Yeah... I will.
好吧，我尽力了。 Okay, I tried.
好吧。 Okay.
谢谢你！我告诉过你。 Thank you. I told you.
帝国线运行快车 The Empire Line running express
到纽约市的宾州站，停在哈德逊， to Penn Station, New York City, which stops in Hudson,
莱茵克利夫，波基普西，克罗顿和扬克斯 Rhinecliff, Poughkeepsie, Croton and Yonkers
最后一站是纽约市的宾州站。 with a final stop in New York City, Penn Station.
请准备好机票 Please have your tickets ready
请在列车长经过时通知他。 for the conductor when he comes through.
还记得迈克那场完美的比赛吗? Remember when Mike threw that perfect game...
…直到最后一局…… ...until the final inning...
…然后他就把它给了他们? ...and then he gave it up to them?
那只是他的运气。 That was just his luck.
我不是故意让这一切发生的。 I didn't mean for any of this to happen.
本来应该很简单的。 It was supposed to be simple.
迈克发现里面的东西后， When Mike found out what was in it,
他既不卖也不还。 he wouldn't sell it or give it back.
他认为他们要做什么? What did he think they were going to do?
我想那是我的运气。 I guess that's my luck.
这跟运气没有任何关系。 This doesn't have anything to do with luck.
我害怕，妈妈。 I'm scared, Mom.
我也是。 Me too.
我最小的儿子天生就是当运动员的料。 My youngest son was born to be an athlete.
他的哥哥托比开始打滚地球 His older brother, Toby, started hitting ground balls
当他两三岁的时候。 when he was two or three.
这个孩子很好。Toby也是。 The kid was good. So was Toby.
但是Michael有一些不同的东西… But Michael had something different...
他有一只胳膊。 he had an arm.
哦，给我来杯水。 Oh, just water for me.
他以每小时70英里的速度投掷。 He threw 70 miles per hour by 14.
球探开始告诉我们他有真正的机会。 The scouts started telling us he had a real shot.
我们不知道他造成了什么样的破坏 We had no idea what kind of damage he was doing
到他的投掷臂的肩膀。 to the shoulder of his throwing arm.
也许我们应该让他停下来，但是到了15岁， Maybe we should have made him stop, but by 15,
他正在接受止痛药物治疗。 he was being medicated for pain management.
说我不知道更好的将是完全正确的… To say I didn't know any better wouldn't be totally true...
谢谢。 Thanks.
<我>…但我知道一个孩子不应该承受那么大的痛苦。 ...but I knew a kid shouldn't be in that much pain.
然后，我开始看到他的行为发生了变化。 Then, I started seeing his behaviour changing.
托比是一个不同的故事。 Toby was a different story.
他是我们不需要担心的人… He was the one we didn't have to worry about...
<我>…公务员，野心勃勃的那个。 ...the civil servant, the ambitious one.
这可能是我在他身上唯一还能认出来的东西了， That might be the only thing I still recognize in him,
那有毒的野心。 that toxic ambition.
尽管迈克和托比是不同的， As different as Mike and Toby were,
他们的生活纠缠在一起 their lives stayed intertwined
比他们能让我知道的更多。 more than they could ever let me know.
我想你知道这意味着什么。 I assume you know the implications of this.
我知道的比任何人都多。 I know more than anyone.
休息几天…… Take a couple of days...
…一周，随便吧。 ...a week, whatever.
好好利用这段时间， Take that time and if then,
如果你还想出版，我会支持你的。 you still want to publish it, I'll have your back.
很好。 It's good.
谢谢你让她陪我们一天。 Thanks for letting us have her for the day.
我可以带她去吗? Can I take her?
你好,宝贝! Hello, baby!
我们今天要找点乐子吗? Are we going to have some fun today?
哦,是的。 Oh, yeah.
谢谢,妈妈。再见。 Thanks, Mom. See you later.
哦! Oh!
让我们开始吧! Let's do it!
我们去找点乐子吧。 Let's go have fun.
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